Performing at the Fryeburg Fair
Tasha
At Ferry Beach, she’d crouch,
catch his eye,
make sure he was hooked,
turn slowly away, next a head fake
just before turning it on.
With that Tina Turner tail,
she was always the fastest one
on the sand. She could scramble
up onto the roof of the car.
Once we got her to climb a tree.
Back home, she’d only stop herding
us once we sat down to watch TV,
eat ice cream & put our empty
bowls on the floor.
When neighborhood walks got slow
we carried her up the steps
and through the door
into her shrunken home:
the front hallway floor draped with old sheets.
Soon we started carrying
her downstairs, too.
When it was time, the quiet
vet and his tearful assistant drove
over in his maroon station wagon
to join us in the hall.
We took turns petting Tasha
Goodbye. You held her head in your lap.
Then the shot. A sigh. Done.
We wrapped her up, carried her
to the backyard hole
we’d already dug, cried in the rain
and took turns with the shovel.
We all kidded about getting our hands
on whatever it was that the vet used.
We could keep a stash in the freezer.
You know. For us. For later.
But now I don’t want the stash.
Instead, I want that quiet vet & his tearful
assistant to drive up in the station wagon,
walk up the steps, and find us in the front
hallway where I’m lying on clean sheets
with my head in your lap.
Performing at the Fryeburg Fair
We did three shows a day.
Music. Jokes. Juggling. Old fashioned fun.
Nearby tents promised the WORLD’S LARGEST RAT,
the Duke of Windsor’s GOLD CADILLAC
and even more. I resisted for days, but finally
paid $3 to enter and see the REAL HIPPIE,
a lanky hair beaded guy meditating on
an Indian bedspread. Incense. Jefferson Airplane.
His dorm room diorama littered
with Just Say No to Drugs fliers.
This last fair of the season
starts hot (snow cones & lemonade)
ends cold (fried dough & gray coffee).
Snow was in the air between Thursday’s shows
as I went for a quick warm up walk
on the border between the RV’s and the side shows
where two bikini-clad dancers barely
swayed on a skinny stage in front of the GIRL SHOW tent.
The barker’s lackluster spiel and muffled boom box
drove their languid slow motion belied by icy hard nipples.
No takers. Then that kid I’d seen around the barns
open-faced, big ears, short jeans, huge boots, fifteen?
rode up on a steer.
He sat stock-still, close up
waist level with the listless dancers.
“You’re blocking the view. Come inside. $5.”
The kid pulled a rein back to head through the door,
but the steer’s horns slammed the shaky frame.
The barker pulled the kid down off the steer,
took his money and tied the steer to a power pole.
The shivering dancers climbed down and they all headed inside.
I hope they had a space heater.
I hope the kid loved what he saw.
I hope all of them are doing something else this October.
One night, I talked with a ride operator as we drank coffee
and smoked cigarettes at the Lions Club trailer.
I asked him what it’s like to travel around and run rides.
He said, “You know what they all say?”
One last drag, then he flicked his cigarette away.
“They all say: here we go.